DJ SPUDSKI set from the Crave dj Competition Oct 2015

And the shit hit the fan

So my wonderful GP rang and told me there's nothing they can do to help the obese in NIreland, days like this i wish i was a smoker because they are falling over themselves to help those lot out. But i suppose  i have no one to blame but myself,  when i came home for lunch at school no one stood over me and forced me to eat 8 baps filled with ham. Again no one made me eat the loaf of toast that was set down to me for breakfast so im not blaming anyone but me, it was my mouth, my hand and my belly i filled. So abit about me, mid 40s, married 2 kids my wife doesn't come near me, its my fault i was a dickhead years ago but seeked help and have changed but i didn't matter she still doesnt come near me and ive had to adapt. Its been hard trying not to care and the feeling of being lonely and being unable to share really gets me down, today im at the lowest point ive been for years.